assurance

so after a few days of ranting, you stopped talking to me.

i didn't know what to do honestly. i was at the point of telling myself to give up. i am far away and i was thinking it'd be easier to just move on and have a new life. but something tells me to hold on.

it kept on reminding me not to give up regardless of what you do or say.

then you decided to put down your walls. i was still sensitive. so i put on the sarcasm to remind myself that it's over, we're over.

you didn't respond.

then i thought. you're okay with this. so what the hell, i should force myself to let go.

i was walking alone holding back my tears. i tried to pretend that i hurt my eyes to keep people's attention away.

i sat down. i thought of you then *boom* down came the tears. it has been about 3 days that i kept on crying. you know what stopped me from crying?

it was when you said you love me. nothing has changed and you're just doing the right thing.

it was as if my heart was just looking for an assurance that we're still on the love boat. it's just that the current got a bit stronger.

i love you. always have and always will :)